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Phoenix Down
Artist | Student | Digital Art
United States
Favourite style of art: Mixed variations :3 Though Lately I have been focusing on digital art
Tools: Intuos Tablet / Open Canvas/ Art Rage and occasionally traditional tools
MP3 player of choice: iTunes
Personal Quote: "If one person understands, then it was worth the trouble"
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:iconcollabsopen::iconarttradesfriendsonly::icongiftsfriendsonly::iconcommissionsonhold: :iconpointcommishesonhold::iconkiribansclosed::iconnorequests: Please Dont Thank Me STAMP by Puff-Dahh


May 2015

If it looks like I'm trying harder, I am.  

Right now, I'm mentally... I don't know if stressed is the right word.  I forced myself into this challenge a year ago, but now something's different.  Maybe I am on the verge of learning something new or getting something down I wasn't understanding before.

I don't like to sketch or do linework, and that's something I have to work on.

I want to figure out this damned coloring style I really like but can't find references for, so I'm winding up making this up as I go.  THat's it.  THAT's what's driving me nuts.  I wish someone would tell me what I am doing.  I wish someone would tell me, "Oh you're doing (xyz) type of style" so I could go "oh! ok I can google this and figure out what I'm doing wrong.  Why I'm not happy with my results.  Why this isn't going as fast as I would like it.

What if it has no name.  What if I am making something that doesn't exist yet?  That is terrifying to me.  Because it's not like I know what I am doing!  I didn't finish art school or get prestigious training, or practice drawing from real life references every day!

...

But I know more than when I started a year ago, so that's quickly becoming a lie.    I can't explain it, but I can sort of see what I am doing now for some things, especially when I color.  

So now,  I'm doing something along a colorist painting method.  But I didn't read the instructions fully in google and sort of just looked at the pictures as I was skimming.  Because this wasn't what I was looking for, only part of the answer.  It's so frustrating,  forced to learn by looking at someone else's work...

But isn't this what art students do?  

I practice virtually every day, hours at a time doing art after work and full time on the weekends.  I don't think I should label myself "Hobbyist" anymore.  Hobby is something you do occasionally.  This is my 2nd job in a sense and something I am determined to see through.

Year 2:  I am an art student.
  • Mood: Joy
  • Listening to: my fan
  • Watching: time go by
  • Eating: thoughts
  • Drinking: homemade sweet tea

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